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When I created my blog I had no idea what path would be taken. All I knew was it was time to share what I had learned on my journey of life.
Even after all the different healings of my mind and body I had experienced up to this point in my life, I knew more was to take place, as it will until I am no longer breathing on this earth.
From the age of a small child, I had experienced emotional pain off and on as we all have. My heart broke when I lost my dad at such a young age.
Little did I know at the time, my heart would break even more one day.
I loved my three children I gave birth to, more than life itself. I would spend hours holding them, playing with them, talking to them as they looked up at me with wonder.
I had so many hopes for them. It was my responsibility to provide them with the basics of life, which in my world, included a father.
I knew what it was like not to have mine, although I had the perfect step-father. So why should my adult life be any different?
I also did not realize at the time that I carried an unrealistic dream of the "normal American family". I made mistakes in some of my choices and it hurt my children, something I would never intentionally do.
I have shared what I have learned through those experiences in my articles. But, the one thing I was not aware of until recently was a pain I still carry, a pain that broke my heart into a million pieces.
Spirituality is about unconditional love, going within, silence, awareness, awakening, forgiveness, living in the moment, and just being, to name a few.
I have always considered myself a spiritual person opposed to a religious one. The rules I found in religion never really made sense to me, so I went in search of the Truth about our existence.
I found Truth and have a peace within I have never known. On a daily basis, I still learn. But now that I have opened my heart, it seems as if seeking is not so much required as I used to think.
And the faith I have used all my life, my faith in a Higher Power, is stronger than it has ever been.
Events have transpired that have uncovered the pain I thought had healed, the pain of sexual child abuse.
Even typing the word sexual seems strange, almost as if it is a bad word. Growing up here in the south, it pretty much was a word that was not supposed to be spoken aloud.
This contributes to the reason why when my family experienced this type of abuse there was not much support available to us.
I will not go into detail here in this article, but I will share with you that when it happens to one, it affects the entire family, even if not realized.
As a mother, it literally broke my heart into a million pieces.
Never in my life had I ever experienced such pain and have not since. The advice we were given by many was to forgive and forget. This pain cannot be forgotten, it is with you for life.
As far as forgiving goes, the jury is still out on that one.
The awareness of the pain still lurking inside of me was found as I wrote my previous articles, watching my adult children find their way in this life.
Every article I have written is due to an observation either in my life or my children's lives.
It has been 20 years since we as a family, stepped into hell. As I look back, I would have done a few things differently. But we only operate with level of knowledge we hold at any given time, right?
That is the very reason my articles exist... to share what I have learned.
Last night I wondered how on earth I would combine spirituality with sexual child abuse. Well, that answer did not take long in arriving.
The details in each case are all different, some worse than others, but the pain is the same. The emotions experienced are the same.
Holding onto the hurt, anger, hate, blame, guilt and all the other feelings stemming from abuse is known as living in the past and is not conducive to a healthy lifestyle.
Releasing these binding emotions by becoming an active voice will give us the freedom to live in the moment.
This will also offer an opportunity to rebuild our lives in a positive fashion. It is never too late.
Becoming a voice for the children is essential in finding solutions. I began my research and found there are much more positive avenues available now than there was 20 years ago.
Who would not want to save a child's mental and physical well- being?
My three are grown now, but I have grandchildren, nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends who have the same.
What better gift could we give these children than a voice speaking for something they know absolutely nothing about?
All the attributes I listed of spirituality plays a huge part in this and this is how it all comes together.
Being a voice for the children is loving
Being a voice for the children is compassion
Being a voice for the children is living in the moment
Being a voice for the children is healing
Being a voice for the children is awareness in action
Spirituality is just a label, as is other words that could be used to describe the reasons for being a voice. You don't have to be considered spiritual to become involved.
There are two organizations I found through my research I have chosen to be a part of. There are many out there for the picking. Find one that resonates with you.
If you are a survivor, which involves not only the abused person, but their family also, or know someone who was abused, your voice is needed now.
Yes, it hurts to share this experience and I don't know if total healing will ever take place... I don't allow myself to attach to that thought... I am simply following and listening to my heart.
As long as heads stay stuck in the sand regarding sexual child abuse, no solutions will manifest and nothing will change.
Reach out, share your story, rescue a child, be a part of the solution, not the problem.
Understanding this becomes... a simple truth
Hopefully, sharing my articles will assist in healing, not only for myself, but my family also.
I have chosen to share this information in hopes of a better world for our children through prevention.
Wanda Lawson, Spiritual Writer
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I love to write and share my experiences in life. Our journeys, I believe, are meant for sharing. Not to dictate how one should live, just offering what has worked for me as considerations.
Simply, follow your heart.
Namaste
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